What you are going through did not take God by surprise it took you by surprise. God knows just how much you can handle so he is going to press you and stretch you. Stop saying you can’t take it; you can take it, that’s why God allowed it. He is showing you what he’s placed on the inside of you. If you’re ever going to go to the next level, you have to go through a series of test. The Lord knows how you feel, but he’s not concerned about your feelings, he’s concerned about your destiny. The Lord is not going to bring you out one second before time, because if he does, you will be undone. So, stop trying to explain to people what’s going on with you and stop trying to figure out what God is doing, just say; the Lord knows.
Be blessed and continue to be a blessing.