How is it you have a hard time believing God but you will constantly talk to the enemy?
Do you talk to the enemy because you are convinced that God cannot deliver you? Or do you talk to the enemy because it takes God a while to answer you?
The more you have a dialogue with the enemy the less you trust God. You already know that the enemy comes to still, kill and destroy. So, why keep willingly giving him your stuff, your home, your children and your life.
Break off the relationship with the enemy and start pouring your heart out to God.
Be blessed and continue to be a blessing.